I’m Forgetting

I have been in a bit of a funk for the last couple weeks, and I just couldn’t figure out why, but tonight I realized it’s because I’m beginning to forget.

It’s too soon. June 6th marks two years since we held our son for the first and last time. That doesn’t seem possible. I can’t believe we’ve been without him for so long..

I remember a lot from my pregnancy, most of it, actually, but I am forgetting things from that day.

I’m forgetting what his skin felt like and how it felt to press my thumb into his tiny hand.

I’m forgetting, and I hate it. I want to remember every tiny detail, and I don’t just want to remember them with my mind.

I want to remember them with my eyes and ears and skin. I want to remember them like it didn’t end, but I can’t.

Today I am forgetting some things, but knowing that I will never forget him.

Today I am really missing our boy.

4 thoughts on “I’m Forgetting

      1. Her entire story though. I’ve read many posts and watched her testimony video. Man! The saving grace of God and His comfort. His sweet comfort. But, man.

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      2. Thank you so much for taking the time to read and watch! (I just figured out how to change my display name, so people know it’s me when I reply to comments) I never imagined that this would be my story, but God has been so faithful to me in all of it. Love your last comment – I can just imagine you saying it exactly as you wrote it.

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