My Love, Will You Die For Me Today?

It seems like the grandest gesture one can make – to die for another. Jesus even says that there is no greater love than to lay down your life for a friend (John 15:13).

It’s the most romantic thing a person could possibly say, “I love you so much, I would die for you.”

Most men have this innate drive to protect what is theirs. Husbands would easily give their lives for their wives if it was a matter of protecting them. Our small group has been going through a video series for the last couple months, and that has been mentioned several times.

“A man would die for his wife.”

While it does seem like a grand gesture, I don’t just want my husband to be willing to sacrifice his body to protect me. Honestly, I might be a little upset because he would be leaving me to live without him, so I struggled with this idea. Continue reading “My Love, Will You Die For Me Today?”

Immanuel, God IS With Us

I wonder if I, at the time of His birth, would have realized the magnitude of what was happening, had I been there.

Would I have believed He was who they said He was before the miracles? Before His sermons? Before His Death? Before His Resurrection? Before the veil was torn and a way was made for me?

This day is a big day. The day His Father said, “It’s time. They need me. I want them. Now is the time.” Continue reading “Immanuel, God IS With Us”

Christmas Eve With Family

This morning was really great. God has blessed us with friends that are really more like family, and I love it.

After we opened our gifts a day early, we had a couple friends over for breakfast. My friend and I talked about life while our husbands watched Star Wars episode 5 in preparation for going to see the new Star Wars movie on Monday.

Later, we met up with another couple of our friends and went to Sing with them. I laughed way too hard at the car wash scene.

We hung out at their house and played with their dogs while we waited to go to the Christmas Eve church service this afternoon.

I always love going to the Christmas Eve service, and tonight was no different. We saw lots more friends at church and got to catch up with most of them.

Too Long

Tonight we hosted our Christmas party for our small group. It was a good night.

This day always seems to sneak up on me as I anticipate Christmas every year. In the middle of this joy-filled season comes a day that brought so much grief so many years ago. This year marks 17 years since my oldest sister, Kristen, died. It’s so hard for my mind to wrap around that number. Seventeen years means that she’s been gone longer than she was here. Continue reading “Too Long”

Not Debt Free By December

My husband and I made it a goal at the beginning of 2016 to have all of our debt (excluding our mortgage) paid off by 2017.

Although we made HUGE progress by paying off all of my student loans, it looks like we will be coming up a bit short. This year has been full of unexpected expenses, but thankfully we have been able to pay cash for most of the things that needed to be done because of the way we had been handling our finances. Unfortunately that meant that sometimes we couldn’t be as aggressive with student loans as we wanted to be.

I am not discouraged though. At least not anymore. Continue reading “Not Debt Free By December”

Puppy Pile

I have a dog. She’s a Golden Doodle named Scout, and I love her to pieces. But my favorite breed of dog is the Great Dane. Let me just tell you how much I love Great Danes.

I don’t know when it started, but somewhere in the course of my life, I decided Great Danes were the cutest little *giant* sweeties I had ever seen, except that I had never actually seen one in real life. Continue reading “Puppy Pile”

My Heart Tonight

My heart has been restless lately.

I’ve been trying to do too much with too little time and I haven’t been taking time to just be still with the Lord. Even my time with Him has had some sort of agenda. So tonight is just going to be me spilling my heart out on these (virtual) pages so that I can look back here in a month and see how God used this time. Because He always finds a way.

I still have so many mixed emotions about what the doctor told us 2 weeks ago. I don’t feel excited about getting pregnant again…at least not right now. And I don’t know if I will be excited if/when it comes. Pregnancy for me the first time was bittersweet. I am not scared that we will lose another child, I just know that if there is a next time it’s going to be really hard, and that doesn’t excite me. Continue reading “My Heart Tonight”