Gosh, it is so hard to wrap my head around this day, and I’m sure it will be just as hard in 15 years and in 40 years. Today, Leeland would have been 3 years old. I still remember a … Continue reading He is Still Good Three Years Later
I had a memory pop up on Facebook the other day from 3 years ago. It was this post from when I was pregnant: UPDATE on BABY LEELAND: It’s been almost a month since the last update. That just seems crazy that so much time has gone by. At that time I was 24 weeks and measuring 36 weeks. When we went to Iowa City, the doctors did another ultrasound. They saw that most of the defects that had been present in the first ultrasound were still there, but there is no hole in his heart! They were unable to … Continue reading Missing Them
Tonight we hosted our Christmas party for our small group. It was a good night. This day always seems to sneak up on me as I anticipate Christmas every year. In the middle of this joy-filled season comes a day … Continue reading Too Long
The last three years have taken me and my husband on quite a journey. From a positive pregnancy test to an abnormal ultrasound to holding our sweet boy who never took a breath on earth to burying him, grieving his loss, and … Continue reading Chasing Answers
There’s this guy in the Bible named Job. He was a blameless man who feared God, so satan went to God one day, and said, “he only fears You because You’ve given him everything he could ever want. Take away … Continue reading But When?
I was sitting on the exam table waiting for the doctor to come back in, when the tears began to fall. I spoke. Not just to myself, but out loud, so the one I hate – the one who hates … Continue reading Breaking
This is Amy’s husband, Jamin. She asked me to post on her blog since it’s Father’s Day, and I am a father. I’m not the “normal” father that looks forward to a new tie, beard trimmer, or a dress shirt. … Continue reading Father’s Day: Life, Death, and a Choice