For He Know the Plans

Jamin and I have been reading one chapter in the Bible, discussing it, and praying over a list of what started out as eleven items and has turned into something a bit larger every day for almost 3 months. It has been so good for us. For a long time, we weren’t good at consistently praying and reading together, and I think it is so important in keeping God the center of a marriage.

We’ve been in Jeremiah for about a month now, and recently came across a verse that anyone who grew up in the church has probably heard. It’s the go-to verse to write on high school graduation cards. Continue reading “For He Know the Plans”

He is Still Good Three Years Later

Gosh, it is so hard to wrap my head around this day, and I’m sure it will be just as hard in 15 years and in 40 years.

Today, Leeland would have been 3 years old. I still remember a lot from that day. I remember 3 years ago, close to this time, we were returning home from the University of Iowa Hospital with one less person than we had left with. Continue reading “He is Still Good Three Years Later”

He Is Still Risen

Millions of people celebrated the coming of a candy bearing rabbit yesterday. I hope that many more millions were celebrating something much bigger – the resurrection of Jesus from the grave.

In the days leading up to Sunday, lots of people talked about Jesus. They talked about why Jesus would do what He did and what it means for us. They talked about how He was welcomed upon entering Jerusalem and how the same people that welcomed Him were in the crowd yelling, “crucify him,” only days later. On Friday, people talked about the punishment Jesus would receive on our behalf and what was supposed to be His final breath. Continue reading “He Is Still Risen”

Fast and Pray

“Bold prayers honor God, and God honors bold prayers.” – The Circle Maker

We’ve hosted a small group at our house almost every Wednesday for over a year, and I love it. We have become a family. I love that everyone feels comfortable showing up any time and walking right in. I love that we can be authentic, provide support when things are hard, and celebrate together when things are good.

We decided about a month ago to do a prayer experiment. My husband had just finished reading The Circle Maker (I just started reading it) and proposed that everyone pick something to fast from and one thing that they wanted prayer for. We all then committed to pray for everyone’s one thing every day. Within the first week, one of prayer requests was resolved. There have been a few more since then.

I’ve always known that prayer is powerful, but it has been really cool to have 12 people praying for all of the same things together and to see results.

My Love, Will You Die For Me Today?

It seems like the grandest gesture one can make – to die for another. Jesus even says that there is no greater love than to lay down your life for a friend (John 15:13).

It’s the most romantic thing a person could possibly say, “I love you so much, I would die for you.”

Most men have this innate drive to protect what is theirs. Husbands would easily give their lives for their wives if it was a matter of protecting them. Our small group has been going through a video series for the last couple months, and that has been mentioned several times.

“A man would die for his wife.”

While it does seem like a grand gesture, I don’t just want my husband to be willing to sacrifice his body to protect me. Honestly, I might be a little upset because he would be leaving me to live without him, so I struggled with this idea. Continue reading “My Love, Will You Die For Me Today?”

Immanuel, God IS With Us

I wonder if I, at the time of His birth, would have realized the magnitude of what was happening, had I been there.

Would I have believed He was who they said He was before the miracles? Before His sermons? Before His Death? Before His Resurrection? Before the veil was torn and a way was made for me?

This day is a big day. The day His Father said, “It’s time. They need me. I want them. Now is the time.” Continue reading “Immanuel, God IS With Us”

Too Long

Tonight we hosted our Christmas party for our small group. It was a good night.

This day always seems to sneak up on me as I anticipate Christmas every year. In the middle of this joy-filled season comes a day that brought so much grief so many years ago. This year marks 17 years since my oldest sister, Kristen, died. It’s so hard for my mind to wrap around that number. Seventeen years means that she’s been gone longer than she was here. Continue reading “Too Long”

Chasing Answers

The last three years have taken me and my husband on quite a journey. From a positive pregnancy test to an abnormal ultrasound to holding our sweet boy who never took a breath on earth to burying him, grieving his loss, and having to rediscover who we were only to find out that my body was somehow damaged along the way. The last three years have stretched us in ways we didn’t know we could handle, but our faithful God knew we could, and He was with us all the way.

Tomorrow we take the next step in finding out what is happening with my body. Continue reading “Chasing Answers”

I Don’t Want to Hear it, but I Need To

I’ve been waiting on insurance to approve an MRI since the middle of August, and finally got word today that my insurance isn’t even accepting the requests from my doctor. It isn’t that they are receiving the requests and denying them – they are seeing there has been a request and refusing to even look at it and put it in their system.

To say that I’m frustrated is an understatement. Tonight I was just angry. I was angry at how stupid insurance is (you won’t convince me otherwise right now) and how messed up my body is with still no answers. Continue reading “I Don’t Want to Hear it, but I Need To”

Finding Jesus in Aladdin

About a week ago, I was watching Aladdin. I’ve seen it many times in my life, but I had never cried watching it until this time.

The story of Aladdin goes like this: There is a poor boy who falls in love with a princess. He finds a genie who can grant him three wishes, and his first wish is to become a prince, so he can marry the princess. Aladdin discovered that the genie was actually a prisoner inside his lamp, and could only be freed if someone used a wish to free him; he promised that he would use his third wish to grant Genie his freedom. Continue reading “Finding Jesus in Aladdin”