I was sitting on the exam table waiting for the doctor to come back in, when the tears began to fall. I spoke. Not just to myself, but out loud, so the one I hate – the one who hates me and wants to destroy me – could hear what I had to say.

“You will not steal my joy. You will not make me despair. You will not ruin my marriage. You will not destroy me. You will not make me lose hope. I will STILL proclaim the goodness of the Lord! You will not win because HE already has.”

“You will not win because He already has.”


When I got to the office and told the doctor I wasn’t Continue reading “Breaking”

The Lame Testimony

I’m a pretty open book when it comes to sharing my story – my life – with people. I have enjoyed, on a couple occasions, sharing my story publicly. In September, I had the opportunity to speak at a women’s retreat put on by the church I grew up in. It was my first time speaking to a crowd of mostly adults, and it was pretty awesome.

People gave me great feedback about my story and encouraged me to keep on sharing, but there was one thing I heard a few times that struck a chord, “You have such a powerful testimony for someone so young. I wish my testimony was like that.”

I was bothered because, Continue reading “The Lame Testimony”