Birthday Balloon

Yep, that’s a picture of the kind of balloon that has been in my uterus the last 10 days.

My birthday was yesterday. I’m 26. Sometimes I think, “wow, has it been 26 years already?” And other times I think, “Only 26 years, huh?”

So much has happened. Sometimes I can hardly believe the story that has been written for me this far. So much loss, but so much more life. So much joy and sorrow. So many surprises and so many opportunities for growth, even if that meant experiencing growing pains physically, emotionally, and spiritually. And I think that will be big in the coming year as I make my way to 27. I can already see it in just a few of the things that have happened recently. This year will cause me to grow in ways that I never thought I would, and I know it will be good because my God is good, and He knows what He is doing. Continue reading “Birthday Balloon”

Chasing Answers

The last three years have taken me and my husband on quite a journey. From a positive pregnancy test to an abnormal ultrasound to holding our sweet boy who never took a breath on earth to burying him, grieving his loss, and having to rediscover who we were only to find out that my body was somehow damaged along the way. The last three years have stretched us in ways we didn’t know we could handle, but our faithful God knew we could, and He was with us all the way.

Tomorrow we take the next step in finding out what is happening with my body. Continue reading “Chasing Answers”

The Mysterious Disappearance of Pursuit

I’ve heard marriage described as a beautiful example of Christ’s love for the Church, and, before I got married, I probably believed that completely, but I have since learned that sometimes it isn’t.

Sometimes marriage isn’t a beautiful example because married people are not more perfect than unmarried people. Do I think that marriage has the potential to be a beautiful example of Christ’s love for the Church? Absolutely, but to leave out the rest of it seems a bit dishonest and irresponsible. Continue reading “The Mysterious Disappearance of Pursuit”

More News I Could Do Without

“I think we need to check and see if it’s a pituitary tumor.”

That’s what my doctor said after receiving the results of a second blood test.

Almost two months ago, I went to see a new doctor in hopes of finding out what the heck is going on with my body. She gave me estrogen to see if that would kick my body back into gear and start my cycle, but it didn’t work. I’m still not getting periods. My prolactin level came back just outside of the normal range, so she wanted me to come back in about a month to retake that test. I had my blood drawn last Tuesday and got the results the next day.

My prolactin levels were Continue reading “More News I Could Do Without”