Chasing Answers

The last three years have taken me and my husband on quite a journey. From a positive pregnancy test to an abnormal ultrasound to holding our sweet boy who never took a breath on earth to burying him, grieving his loss, and having to rediscover who we were only to find out that my body was somehow damaged along the way. The last three years have stretched us in ways we didn’t know we could handle, but our faithful God knew we could, and He was with us all the way.

Tomorrow we take the next step in finding out what is happening with my body. Continue reading “Chasing Answers”

I Don’t Want to Hear it, but I Need To

I’ve been waiting on insurance to approve an MRI since the middle of August, and finally got word today that my insurance isn’t even accepting the requests from my doctor. It isn’t that they are receiving the requests and denying them – they are seeing there has been a request and refusing to even look at it and put it in their system.

To say that I’m frustrated is an understatement. Tonight I was just angry. I was angry at how stupid insurance is (you won’t convince me otherwise right now) and how messed up my body is with still no answers. Continue reading “I Don’t Want to Hear it, but I Need To”

Time Don’t Lie

The title just felt right to me even though the grammar makes me feel like I’m dying a little inside.

I’ve been convicted of a lot of things in the last year (by the Holy Spirit, not the legal system for clarification), and time is one of those things.

If you would ask me what are the 5 most important priorities (things, people, values, etc) in my life I would say the following: Continue reading “Time Don’t Lie”

I Love Winter

 

“I love winter.”

I keep telling myself that even though it’s not actually true…but I wish it were. So I have decided to continue telling myself that until I believe it. It’s simple ‘fake it til ya make it’ logic.

I mean, it shouldn’t be that hard. We believe lies all the time. Lies we tell ourselves, lies we tell other people, lies the enemy tells us. We hear them long enough, and they become our new ‘truth.’

In this case, I don’t think it is necessarily Continue reading “I Love Winter”