One Year Blogiversary!

It’s official! I have been blogging for one whole year!

I’m really proud of myself. I didn’t blog every day, but I met my goal – to post 100 blogs within the first year.

In honor of this anniversary, I have a request to anyone that sees this post (even if you don’t see it until next year!). Would you share with me in the comment section which blog post has inspired you or encouraged you the most? Or tell me which is your favorite! And then, Continue reading “One Year Blogiversary!”

Good Soil

Our small group has been listening to podcasts by Andy Stanley for a few weeks, and last night’s was really good. The series is called Staying In Love, and Andy addresses why people seem to fall out of love after years of being in love and what couples can do to fight back against the decay of love in marriages.

We watched part 3 last night. It was about feelings and how important it is to be able to recognize what we feel because a lot of conflict arises as a result of what is going on inside of our own hearts rather than what our spouses are doing, and it’s easier to simply blame someone else for making us feel a certain way than it is to take responsibility for ourselves. Andy gave an illustration in which Mr & Mrs Mug had a conflict. When there was conflict or a “bump” blue beads fell out of Mr. Mug, and pink beads fell out of Mrs. Mug. They blamed each other saying, “If you didn’t do this or say that these beads wouldn’t have spilled out of me,” but the truth was the blue beads fell out of Mr. Mug because that’s what was inside of him. In the same way, if we have anger inside, anger will spill out when there is conflict.

One discussion question that really stuck out to me was this: Continue reading “Good Soil”

With Just One Year

I was watching a video about squids with one of my daycare kids because squids came up in our conversation, and she wasn’t sure what they looked like. Anyway, I stumbled upon a short video by National Geographic. It was nothing special, but there was one thing the narrator said that struck me.

He said that, on average, squids live only one year, but they do a lot in that time, and I thought, Continue reading “With Just One Year”

Breaking

I was sitting on the exam table waiting for the doctor to come back in, when the tears began to fall. I spoke. Not just to myself, but out loud, so the one I hate – the one who hates me and wants to destroy me – could hear what I had to say.

“You will not steal my joy. You will not make me despair. You will not ruin my marriage. You will not destroy me. You will not make me lose hope. I will STILL proclaim the goodness of the Lord! You will not win because HE already has.”

“You will not win because He already has.”

“YOU WILL NOT WIN BECAUSE HE ALREADY HAS WON THE VICTORY!”

When I got to the office and told the doctor I wasn’t Continue reading “Breaking”

What Fills the Hole?

God rocked me a bit last night during our small group prayer time.

Have you ever felt God soften your heart? I go through seasons of having a harder heart than I would like because I don’t give enough time to pursuing my relationship with Jesus. I think we all do, and I’ve become very familiar with the process of having life put back into my heart.

It’s almost like Continue reading “What Fills the Hole?”

You Would be Two Today

Oh, Leeland. You would be turning two today. How can that be?

It seems like no time has passed since the day you were born, but it also seems like a lifetime ago. Time is a strange thing.

I miss you every day, sweet boy, and I wonder what you would be like.

Happy birthday. Today probably doesn’t mean much to you, baby boy. It’s just another piece of your eternity, but while you’re kneeling before our King, I still think of you on this day.

I love you.

 

This One’s For You, Mom

Mom,

There are a million things I could say to you, but I’ll start with this: thank you.

Thank you for changing the thousands of diapers, for protecting me, and for loving me when I was just a new baby.

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Thank you for being patient with me. I know I wasn’t an easy child – none of us were. You created space for us to be creative and Continue reading “This One’s For You, Mom”